just so you know, part of the reason I haven’t updated lately is that everytime I have something to say, blogger has been down… figures… now I don’t remember everything I have to say. other than Deedee is a meanie! how mean is it to buy a present in april and tell someone you’re not gonna give it to them until july? maybe I’m just jealous that I haven’t got her anniversary present picked out yet… but I’m working on it

school sucks, and I’m ret to come home… as of today, I am responsible for 225 pages of reports for the end of the semester… 75 of which I have to personally write… I just have to edit the other 150. Oh well… sucks to be me…

you know I’m feeling quite philosophical, but I don’t have anything specific to philosophize about… I’ve seen/heard several things in the past week which have made me think… everything from the junior who nearly killed himself from alcohol poisoning because he turned 21 to manda wanting to get a job… yes… something like that warrents philosophical thinking… it’s a trade off, ya know.. getting a job while you have a young kid… do you need a job for money or for personal reasons? how important is it to establish a very good relationship with your children when they’re young? so many things happen during that age… I don’t think I’d be half the person I am today if my grandmother had not spent so much time with me when I was younger because my mom wouldn’t put me in some day care. she taught me to read, basic math, and lots of other stuff, and more importantly she set in me at a young age a set of morals that basically explain who I am today. would I be the same if my parents put me in daycare? no… how different would I be? hard to say… I can remember specific little sayings that my grandmother would say to me even though I was so young… those things are still important to me today.

the following are examples.. they may be slightly skewed, but it’s to demostrate a point… so don’t be offened

so it’s a trade off… your child versus yourself… for manda… you want a job for personal worth and to satisfy some personal need… and if you aren’t going to be happy without one, then get one… otherwise, you’ll end up impressing on your child some sense of depression that he’ll never remember, but he’ll never forget… but if you can stay home, then stay home… you’re child will love you for it …………the other side of this (just so amanda doesn’t feel singled out) is another new mother who decided to go back to work, but for money. claiming she wanted to stay home with her child, but it was impossible to do since they needed the money… to you I say, it is not impossible… look at the situation… look at your surroundings… your brand new house with new furniture… your 5 new cars in 2 years… you’re new toyota tundra and new chevy silverado (or whatever they are) that you want to get a new paint job on… and you wonder why you need money… how much luxury is worth an enduring impression on your child? will he remember you putting him in day care when he was 2 months old? no… will he ever forget it? ………. no

so there’s my rant… praise be to mothers who don’t put their children in daycare… they can’t thank you right now… but they will….

also, it’s not all on the mothers… fathers should provide enough for their families so that the mother has the option of staying home… unfortunately, that’s another rant all together, and I have to go grade some papers…

Later,