Has it really been over a week since I posted here? wow… I feel lazy all of a sudden… you can’t blame me, though… I mean, if you wrote up a 6 page report on the earth’s radiation belts, followed by 12 pages of matlab code modeling the orbit of the international space station, would you want to follow that up with even a sentence about your life at that moment? especially not when your wrists feel like they’re going to go on strike and leave you at any moment… that’s actually starting to worry me a bit… I’ve tried different typing positions, and nothing seems to help… I may have to go back and relearn the dvorak keyboard layout… I know that will help some, but how much? The thought of surgery has come to mind more than a couple of times in the past few weeks… not that I’m ready to go have someone slice open my wrists, but it’s the only true way to get rid of CTS.

surgery also brought me to an interesting thought… it would be so much easier to be healthier if I was already healthy. Sure, I’d like to lose a few pounds and get back into karate and other stuff, but it’s so hard to get motivated knowing that it will be forever and two days before I see any results or feel any better… I mean, if I could go have liposuction tomorrow, then the day after tomorrow, I’d be in kenpo classes and eating salads for lunch it’s the same principle as it is easier to keep a clean house clean. If you walk into a spotless house and knock something out of place, you immediately fix it.. it’s a reaction.. whereas, if you walked into a pig stye and knocked something over, you probably wouldn’t even notice, and if you did notice, it hardly seems worth the effort to fix it.

in that way, I sort of envy Caleb… he can come home, sit on the couch, watch tv, and eat bread (he eats bread for snacks), and he just grows muscles… he doesn’t work out, but he’s managed to grow enough muscle to put me on the ground… something seems oddly out of place there…

oh well.. guess I need to get to sleep… it’s 3am… I only got 4 hours sleep last night… I’m tired… goodnight