well, it’s that time again… I’ve been busy this week… I’ve been sleeping lots to help get better… it’s helped a lot… for anyone who’s still sick out there, I prescribe sleep… at least 10 hours at a time… 2-3 days and you’ll be fine 
as for what’s been going on in the world of me? well… that’s mostly why I haven’t posted… I’ve been too busy thinking. I’m at a crossroads of my life. There’s signs up everywhere that tell me exactly where each path leads, but unfortunately, I can’t seem to get this blindfold out of my eyes… I created a third option and then all but eliminated one of my original two… for those just tuning in, I’m trying to decide where to go to school in the fall, what to major in, and therefore what I’m going to be doing for the rest of my life. I did get one major decision out of the way. I got an offical offer to continue my TA with astrophysics next spring, and that pretty much solidifies my decision to drop my research project. This means cutting my income by almost half, but it’s better than trying to do research I’m not interested in. I haven’t told the prof yet, but I will tomorrow or next week.
so what are my options about next fall? well… it goes something like this… stay here and do aerospace or go back to State and do aerospace and an MBA. Well, those were my two options… I thought of a third. That is to stay here and do astrophysics, or specifically planetary sciences, looking at Mars. It’s a long story how I came up with that third option, but it kinda scares me and excites me at the same time.. It would mean completely leaving the realm of aerospace and rocket science, but it would mean a return to science instead of engineering, and it would mean studying mars… something none of the aerospace people here or at state are doing… I don’t have a clue what kind of jobs there would be out there for an engineer/astrophysicist, and that bothers me. I’m sure NASA needs mars experts, but they don’t need that many of them, I’m sure…
going back to my first two options… I’ve all but eliminated staying here in aerospace. I just can’t justify it. Most of the stuff I can do here, I can do at state, and about half of them I can do better at state… There’s soooo much for me at State that’s it’s hard not to just run there without thinking. Academically, there’s a good aerospace program, paid research at the ERC, and a speciallized MBA program. There’s also friends, family, and especially Deedee. There’s the idea that in a few years, my siblings might be going there, and it would be cool if I were there for that… There’s the band… I miss band… SEC football… only being 2 hrs away from home… only being 2 min away from Deedee. So why not just go there? because I’m a blasted Aquarius and I can’t do anything without thinking it through and logically justifying it, first.
Well, I’m up an hour later than I should be… and I’m sure you’re tired of reading about my inner turmoil… and if you’re not (and even if you are), you’ll be hearing more of it later…
p.s.. 45 – Krys… 46 – ???